For most of us we reach or look to a song or an anthem that fits just us, reach for something that may comfort us in our darkest of hours. It may be the lyrics, the composition or what not...that seeks to give us something to be inspired by. Looking onward, upward...forward and forgetting the present day and hurtful parts of ones past however painful, but tying to move on as time goes on, and hope for healing of our heartbreak. Ironically, many of us don't seek comfort when we are personally flourishing. Rarely, if at all many, (not all) but many of us don't reach out and say thank you Lord, for each blessing....great and small, those times are few and go unnoticed or unseen in our finest of hours. I'm guilty of that.
I have never considered myself to be religious, but consider myself a spirited believer of something...someone greater than myself, Jesus Christ our Lord. That's my belief. But seemingly, I have been angry with God for quite sometime...lost my faith, damaged my spirit, perhaps blaming God, because things had not been going just like I wanted them to. Selfish. Lost. Indecisive. Uncertainty within myself, of global proportions....in times that were anything BUT certain when looking at my life and my future.
Now, I'm not inferring that I've seen the light, what I am saying is that I am reaching with greater strength from the depths of a certain darkness. God...not to blame for my shortfalls. Family, not to blame. My marriage and the reassessment therein, not at fault. Economic downfall of our nation...not to blame. The blame lies with one, me...and only me. My faith may have faltered...but God never did. He was patiently waiting...blessed for that. Thankful.
I have never believed that FB is a platform for religious beliefs being pushed on others within this public forum. Same for political views...I'm left, maybe you're right. It doesn't matter how you stack it here on FB or otherwise... if you want me to change my viewpoints and my political beliefs, I will not. Nor do I feel its fair for me to push my religious/political beliefs, etc. onto any of you. I will not.
So, why did I instantly awaken at 2:30am this morning thinking about God and the church? Perhaps it is because within the coming hours my family of 4 and I will be preparing to attend the church of our choice. For whatever the reason, I am sitting in the office of my home and blogging at 4:30am. Maybe this blog is my letter to those who are still searching for the faith they need in their own lives...not getting their "happy back"...but wishing, hoping, praying to get their "spirit back". Even more so, maybe its my letter to God himself...letting him know that I realize his hand has been placed upon me this entire time, unbeknownst to me. Thanking him for his guidance... all the times I had not sought it.
This song came to mind, and I wanted to share it with each of you...religious or not. It's beautiful perfection, and many artists have performed it flawlessly. I hope you each have a song that is your beautiful perfection of faith and hope.
When you have sinned - Psalm 51
When you are bitter or critical - Corinthians 13
When lonley or fearful - Psalm 23
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